Hampton Homecoming pt.1

First of all I've been missing for a sec so I'm gonna catch up with two posts. Homecoming this year was great. I couldn't decide if I was going and I kept changing my mind literally like every two minutes. I finally decided to go when Baltimore life became overwhelming and I thought getting away and seeing my college friends would be good for me. Thursday I got there in time to do makeup for the fashion show. I saw my old babies from when I was coordinator last year. It felt good to be there. All my model babies were so happy to see me; even the ones who weren't in this year's show. I have to say the fashion show was excellent. The coordinator is the bomb. He is a dancer as well and he will soon be backup dancing for some major star, I forget which one but congrats anyway. Anywho he's really on point and the show was phenomenal. Friday I was supposed to leave early but I awoke late so I decided to stay for the step show. I was really happy with this decision because a brother of mine is a Que and it was his last show as "showdog". He asked me to be at the show but I told him I wasn't sure if I would be there. Since I knew it meant a lot to him I was glad I could stay and cheer them on. But let's not even talk about how the PUNK ALPHAS WON (feel my rage). I was so angry because I dont really care for some of them and their arrogant attitudes. This year especially angered me because they took the normal rivalry and made it disrespectful. When they mocked the ques founder step I was about to throw something at them especially seeing how the ones I'm close to reacted. NOT COOL! Then to make matters worse an old flame is an alpha so I especially wanted them to lose (thats another post) My bro got second place. I'm sure they are used to getting snubbed so he didn't look to angry. I still gave him some words of encouragement. Overall I was happy to be somewhere that I loved so much. It warmed my heart walking around campus and reliving some of the many memories I have there. And seeing people; some that I thought I wouldn't be as happy to see. Everyone for the most part is doing great, that made me feel good. College, especially the HBCU experience is so enriching. It's something everyone should experience! Go Black Colleges!! Whoo Hoo!!!

MY BABIES!!

Ok so I don't know if Iposted this before but I am the director of a new dance ministry at my church. I was asked to reform the youth dance ministry. After prayer and fasting God gave me the title "David's Daughters Youth Dance Ministry" and a vision of a ministry where young people will use dance, praise, and worship as weapons and tools to develop a deeply intimate relationship with God. The ages are 12-18. I got this age limit because it was at the age of 12 that I first joined a ministry and learned spiritual intimacy for myself. I personally know this age isn't too young. It was tough when we first formed becaused most of them just wanted to dance only. I developed a one month intense training to cover a realm of topics to prepare them for dance ministry. Some of them were resistant at first. This is because my expectations for them is very high but I know they can do it; they just didnt yet know. After this training I thought they would be close to ready and we had a setback in practice one day. It was good because it revealed that some of them weren't as far along as they needed to be so I stepped up the teaching. After three more weeks of prayer, practice, and even their firt fast they were ready for their debut. They first ministered at 11:00 service on Sunday October 22. They did an excellent job!! People were ranting and raving. More importantly their confidence was built and they now knew they could do it. I was so extremely proud of these 14 young ladies who are now Tiffany's daughters as well. I was probably more nervous than they were right before they went on. I was standing with them in the hallway and they said "Go sit down so you can watch us" I don't have any children but now I feel like a parent. I have 14 girls who I have to watch for spiritually, cover in prayer, give guidance and inspiration. It feels absolutely wonderful and totally fulfilling! I am truly humbled for the opportunity.

New Possibities 2

Okay so I must continue the discussion of my new friend. All I can say is Whoo-Hoo! (Thats for my friend Angela) Anyway we have talked extensively everyday and seen each other everynight. Last night I got home at 2:30 am and that seems to be the pattern everynight. Today I visited my friend and he showed me his childhood pictures and I just chilled at his house for a couple hours. What is it about liking someone that their very presence is satisfying? We didn't do anything special but I was glad I was there with him. I was talking to him as he was cleaning the kitchen and cleaning his room. This man keeps a clean house, for that alone I am infactuated. Not to mention that he loves the Lord, has a degree and two businesses, and can dress his tale off. Plus he's from Harlem and has that NY swaggert. I digress. It's weird though because the real point of this blog is to mention that he is my best friend's relative and the two of them are just as close as we are. It's weird because we've never had secrets but now in order to keep loyalty to both of us she has to keep what we both tell her confidential. I know she hates being in the middle, I feel bad for her. I'll go to tell her something we did and he already did and I'm like how did you guys end up talking about me and she can't tell me what he's saying. It doesn't matter though because she won't let either of us get hurt and I know she will tell us if we are headed for disaster. I'm so happy right now that it doesn't even matter.
Also my demo was completed and ready for pickup today. I put it in my package and my friend (same friend) is taking it to the label this weekend. What, he's helping me find my deal, marry me please! Sike but that is really important to me and he's already showing me he has my back. Wait, I'm not supposed to be talking about him anymore. I digress. So now I have to play the waiting game and make the time between the label hearing it and calling me sweet. I will need my friends help in this. It's all good though because what God has for me is for me and that's it. I know in time the world will hear my music so look out world; here comes Tiffany Lishonne.
Since I am relapsing into talking about my friend i am starting another whole paragraph just to say did I mention that I WAS HAPPY!!!!

New Possibilities!

I am feeling special today because I have a new male friend. Well really its an old friend who I have liked for a very long time and I recently discovered that he's liked me as well. We are now talking and getting to know each other better than we already did. It's cool because I liked him but I never thought he would like me so I am in shock and pleasantly surprised. We were being a lil whack at first because we didn't want the other one to know that we liked each other. Then he was apprehensive to approach me because my parents are the pastors of the church that we both go to. After a mutual friend comforted him and let him know that nothing would be too different, he called and it's been gravy since then. As I am typing this I am super-smiling because of new possibilities. We are going out tonight and I can't wait. It's like I enjoy just being around him and talking to him so much. And he's showing himself to be really in my corner. He's helping me to get a record deal. Once my demo package is complete, he's taking it to his friend at a label and giving it to her. I thought he was going to mail it. He said he was going to drive up to New York and give it to her in person. OF course this made me feel great and he earned a lot of points in my book when I found that out. If nothing more, I will make a really good friend.

Knowledge is Contagious

"Power is the ability to define reality and to have others respond as if that definition were their own." A professor of linguistics said this on a program I was watching today and it really impacted me. I was watching a documentary about the riots in Watts of the 60's and the 90's. This program related the two and talked the origins of them both, the connection, and the future since then. Pardon me while I have a philisophical moment but I was amazed. I love to feed my brain and this program really gave me some food for thought. There was a portion where they talked about the destruction of the Black Panthers by the government and how all these youth were left feeling militant and aroused now with no leadership. Suddenly we saw the emergence of gangs and street violence as a means to direct this frustration. It was amazing how they noted that the government could disintegrate an entire party nationally and couldnt monitor and abolish these two local gangs in their early emergence. There was actually a meeting where a local figure tried to call a peace treaty between the bloods and the crips. They were actually about to shake hands when just then LAPD planted a fight and broke up the meeting. QUESTION? Who had called the police? ANSWER: No one, they were waiting for a reason to break it up. REVELATION! They didn't want to end gang violence because it diverted the youth's attention from the fact that they were being ignored and it allowed for a suicide of the African-American Race.
Another insightful moment was when they talked about how the guns were imported into the inner cities. Many always think ok they just setup gun shops with little to no regulation. REVELATION #2! They were literally handing them out. They would have a random van sitting in the middle of the projects full of guns and ammunition and an hour later it would be empty and have vanished. Also the trains would stop on the tracks and have boxcars full of oozies and anything imaginable open for the taking. I found this to be amazing. If we can't see the plan to anihilate us then we need to WAKE UP! I think this program was awesome and is food for thought. If you're reading this let's spread the knowledge we have to all young people about how to challenge the plans for blacks in this country. Own that business, have that house and happy marriage, be financially prosperous, live the American dream that is really the "White American Dream" we must claim for ourselves. SUCCESS IS THE BEST REVENGE!

My Live Show

Today I feel like spewing out whatever comes to mind. I had a really cool day. I went to the studio with my brother to be supportive. After he was done recording. I let his producers hear one of the songs on my demo. They went bonkers!! They loved it. One of them works at a radio station and they are involved in the creation of a major show in Baltimore. They want me to perform in it. I am so excited. They have a live band and everything. We are going to begin rehearsing pronto as the show is November 12,2005. I can't wait to get started cause I just wrote some hot new songs and I have some great ideas! This show is major. I don't wanna say where it is yet cause I'm not etched completely in stone. When I am I will shout it out. Until then I'll keep you in suspense.

Naked and Not Ashamed (My Journey PT.1)

The Lord came into my room last night while I lay asleep. He slowly approached the bed where I lay resting and He gently pressed the side of my face with His lips in a kiss. Normally with the deepness of my sleep and the intensity of my R.E.M cycles this wouldn't have awakened me. But I could feel all His glory so I jump up quickly in awe.
I awakened to His loving smile. And His strong, mighty arms open wide to receive me. Without saying a word I jumped in His arms and we engage in a powerful embrace. I lay in His bosom and I received the most perfect love. And in His most loving, gentle voice He spake and said," Come love, I have somewhere I want to take you. Will you come?" I answered, "I'll follow you anywhere."
Envisioning paradises and visions of grandeur, I was shocked to see that He had taken my hand and led me to my mirror. Realizing that I was quite bewildered He spake, "Daughter, this isn't your final destination, but it's your first stop."
Standing still bewildered, I wasn't ready for what He said next.
"Now I want you to trust me and do what I say do. I want to you to undress and completely uncover yourself before me."
I was afraid to be this vulnerable before Him but that's exactly what He needed from me. He needed me to remove the layers that comforted me in my sleep and caused me not to see my own flesh.
As I undress I began to weep bitterly at the sight. My bare flesh was filthy with unforgiveness, depression, fear, rejection, lust, and unpure love. I was afraid but as I continued to undress before the Lord I felt lighter and lighter.
But just then He took my hand and lend me to my bathroom. There inside was a tub full of blood. It was fragrant though, I was the only stinch.
He took apart of His garment off of His side and revealed a gauged area. He placed me in the tub and washed me in this blood that I could now assume was His. He wiped away every childhood memory, all the painful words spoken over me, all my fears and procrastination,every memory of those who rejected me, every moment of shame and the hurt that accompanied, all those who loved my body and not my spirit, and every remnant of those who had resided in my heart prematurely. When He was done I no longer smelled the stinch of myself. I was fresh and innocent as a baby.
He took me back to the mirror but this time I could look at myself with pride.
He had removed all of sin's smog.
I was clean and glowing.
He took my old layers, balled them up and discarded of them in the hole in His side. He gave me a white robe and said, " I'll be back for you tomorrow. Rest my child, for the journey will be long. "

Virgin Blogger

Alright I'm new at this but it seems easy. I just want this page to be somewhere I come jot down my thoughts, poems, etc. My online journal I guess one could say. I really don't have much to say so I guess this post took my blog virginity. LOL.