Darkest Before the Dawn!

They say it's darkest before the dawn.
I am now discovering this statement in the fullness of its meaning.
I can see the bright future that God has promised me but I guess I have to experience a certain amount of trials and pain before I can get there.
They say that if you get a blessing too soon it's a curse because you are not able to handle the weight of it.
It's amazing how even something good can destroy you if you are not ready to handle everything that comes with it.
Everyone who knows me knows that I long and ache to be a professional recording artist.
Sometimes it seems like it will never happen though I know it will.
"WAlk by faith, not by sight."
Easier said than done!
It's like when you are told it's gonna be warm today so you walk outside in a tank and feel 20 degree winds blowing on your bare skin and you're trying to picture the warmth you were promised, while yet shivering.
This is an illustration of how I feel.

WHERE'S THE ABUNDANT LIFE I WAS PROMISED!
It's gotta be somewhere Lord?
I feel like I'm in a cocoon.
I went in a caterpillar and I'm coming out a beautiful butterfly;
But in the meantime I'm in the cocoon trying to flap my wings and flexing my muscles.
The walls of the cocoon are holding me in so tight and each contraction causes grave pain, but is necessary.
I am not able to burst free so I stay inside, the very place I need to be but yet dreaming about the outside makes me able to stay in here.
Not understanding that being confined to these walls is making me stronger than every before.
It's making me wiser than ever before.
It's making me mature.
It's also preparing me for the loneliness of being at the top because no one else can fit in this cocoon with me.
I must reside here alone.

My eyes are being prepped to handle the glare of the beauty and brightness I'm about to see.
And as I explore the world my wings won't get tired because of the excruciating refinement.
In my cocoon I grow and push as it hurts like pain I've never known.
In this lonely, long, dark, and dismal place,
Waiting until I break the shell of preparation in the dawn I was promised.